I'm telling you. Don't do it.
Welp you did it...
Quick rant
Why does everyone ignore me?
I don't think they hate me.
I don't think they don't like me.
They just ignore me.
It hurts.
They share stories and opinions.
The others listen.
When I try to share, they talk over me.
Im left out of things. Not told no, just never invited.
People walk off in the middle of conversations.
Im not shoved away, im just left out.
I physically shove my way into these conversation circles
Then when I try to speak Im cut off or talked over.
Outside of school, im pushed to the back of things.
When my music school casts songs, im put on the song with no leads,
no energy, the ones no one else wants to be on. When I complain I get taken off of them and not put on more.
I quit football because I was benched for no reason. I had more TDs, more completed passes, more yards, better catch to drop ratio, and I was benched.
Im shoved to the bottom everywhere, no matter how aggressive I am, how social I am, how loud I speak, how hard I try. No matter what. Do I exist? Can you see this post? It feels like I'm unimportant in everyones life. Its always "Im playing league with Ryan Rn, maybe later, never is it "Hey ryan Im getting off Im gonna play with Ethan" I go out of my way for so many people, no one does shit for me.
What am I doing wrong?
Quick rant
Why does everyone ignore me?
I don't think they hate me.
I don't think they don't like me.
They just ignore me.
It hurts.
They share stories and opinions.
The others listen.
When I try to share, they talk over me.
Im left out of things. Not told no, just never invited.
People walk off in the middle of conversations.
Im not shoved away, im just left out.
I physically shove my way into these conversation circles
Then when I try to speak Im cut off or talked over.
Outside of school, im pushed to the back of things.
When my music school casts songs, im put on the song with no leads,
no energy, the ones no one else wants to be on. When I complain I get taken off of them and not put on more.
I quit football because I was benched for no reason. I had more TDs, more completed passes, more yards, better catch to drop ratio, and I was benched.
Im shoved to the bottom everywhere, no matter how aggressive I am, how social I am, how loud I speak, how hard I try. No matter what. Do I exist? Can you see this post? It feels like I'm unimportant in everyones life. Its always "Im playing league with Ryan Rn, maybe later, never is it "Hey ryan Im getting off Im gonna play with Ethan" I go out of my way for so many people, no one does shit for me.
What am I doing wrong?
