Need Some help!

[shmokintooka]

Hey. I need help from people of the MCM community, I don't know anyone else to ask.

So this past few months have been getting tougher and tougher. I had a crush on my girl bestfriend and jealousy struck and now we aren't friends anymore. I always get shit from my dad and brother and the only thing that makes me happy is playing basketball outside. (aside from the laughs my friend gives me in school.) Im not sure if its depression, or anything. I just don't feel myself anymore and I feel as if a piece of me is missing. I started thinking of smoking weed because I heard its a way of calming yourself down and people with depression have +1ed it. Anyways, I made some poor choices this past week as well. I was grounded due to vandalizing a house (wasn't me!!!!!!!) and my phone was taken for a week, and I basically avoided my parents this week. I also can't play basketball with my brother without him making fun of me for something. I started to lose friends that I had and I just feel worthless. I feel as if I try to hard but nothing pays off. Suicide has been a thought in a lot of occasions but id most likely never drive myself to do it.


I just NEED help from someone that has had experiences like I have. Idk whether I should start smoking weed to calm myself because at this point it seems calming and a new experience.


THANKS!

 

[Leeiuum]

I'm not in the best place myself to give advice, but I hope you feel better soon. Just know you're not alone - if that helps.

 

[shmokintooka]

I'm not in the best place myself to give advice, but I hope you feel better soon. Just know you're not alone - if that helps.

Thankyou. I feel that making this thread makes me feel like im looking for attention, but I have nothing that helps me.

 

[shmokintooka]

I think the whole corona virus and isolation problem has caused issues for many people. Tensions rise and people snap. I wouldn't advice smoking weed, that could cause a downward spiral and using it to get out of depression is never the way. My friends always take the piss out of each other, if there's something that your brother is doing that's really bothering you just go up to him and tell him straight up that it's annoying you and to please stop it. From my experience, this always works and if someone genuinely sees that it's affecting you it won't continue. Focus on yourself and find a hobby you enjoy, possibly working out and going to the gym could help you calm down and also gives you a sense of purpose.

Ahh funny u say working out, I created a gym schedule last night actually :tup:[DOUBLEPOST=1602287000][/DOUBLEPOST]

Ahh funny u say working out, I created a gym schedule last night actually :tup:

But thanks

 

[shmokintooka]

I completely understand how it is to have a crush on a girl that's your bestfriend and being jealous. My situation is vastly more complicated than that, but to give a little insight, it was similar to a friends-with-benefits situation before we dated. Mine and her relationship is a very complex one that I'm not going to get into right now.

Anyway, it sucks. Unfortunately, there's nothing you can do about it. You can always try to apologize, let her know how you feel, and it's up to her to pass the ball back or to drop the ball and ghost you. It's risky, but ultimately, it's the only choice you really have if you want to stop worrying as much about it. You aren't doing anything wrong from reaching out to her again.

I'm not sure what type of shit you're talking about from your brother or dad, but I know for certain how it feels to have this happen. My brother consistently blames me for his fuckups, which is definitely not something I want to deal with, so I've grown to distance myself from everyone other than my biological sister. It may be hard, but I recommend distancing yourself. If they care, they'll realize and approach you. If not, maybe they don't realize, but I'm sure they still care. I'd just go to them about it.

As for smoking weed, I can't say that I exactly recommend that. It's been years since I last smoked a joint, but for me, it never really ended well. I personally don't enjoy it, but you could definitely give it a try. It helps a lot of people and I hear a lot of good things about it.

If you're in high school or especially middle school, don't stress over losing friends that much, they're not going to be there for you when you need them most anyway, truth be told, I don't talk to anyone from my high school years. Suicide is never the best option, it's just the easiest, but you have to remember who you'll be hurting in the process.

Thanks a lot! Im trying many solutions right now.

 

[stephvibes]

I honestly felt like 90 percent of that post but the thing that keeps me going is just a better day tomorrow. I do a lot of stuff in my freetime and just try to get better. But if you don't mind me asking why is your bro making fun of you for hooping?

 

[shmokintooka]

I honestly felt like 90 percent of that post but the thing that keeps me going is just a better day tomorrow. I do a lot of stuff in my freetime and just try to get better. But if you don't mind me asking why is your bro making fun of you for hooping?

We always 1v1 and he always thinks he's better than me at everything and his huge ego just gets to me when we fight

 

[Violet]

this is pogchamp lets go!!!

 

[shmokintooka]

this is pogchamp lets go!!!

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