Reflection - A journey of sorrow and regret

[Croc]

As many of you are aware, a thread was posted last night by Wvisoecj to calm the fears of our community over the Onyx security concerns that Ajdin pointed out the other day. Without going into detail and revealing the ulterior motives of the thread, I want to apologize to everyone involved for turning that thread into a pool of hate. I should not have replied at all. In the end, I only made things worse for myself.

I cannot take back the things I have said or done in the past. I must live with this judgement condemning me for the rest of my life. However, I want to make things right with the community and try to make the best of it!

Below I have made a list of people that I've ever had a fight with on MCM along with a personal sincere apology from the bottom of my heart:

West - You were the first person I ever ignored in this community. I know we made up months ago, but I just wanted to apologize for ever letting our relationship get out of hand in the first place. You are a really cool kid!

BucketOfSloths - You and I haven't got off on the right foot. Would you like to start over?

1amDev - Michael, I deeply regret copying the layout of your old site for personal gain. It was so wrong of me and makes me look like a fake! I know I am better than that and didn't need to do it. I need to learn to accept that people are going to sometimes be better than me.
As long as I am giving 100% and I try my best at everything I do, I can be successful too!

Elcro - Lev, you and I could be great friends, but again I've let the jealousy bring out the worst in me and it draws us apart. You are an amazing designer and I'm honored to have once been a part of your circle of friends. I understand if you never want to put me in that position again.

Justis - Ah, Justis! You and I have a history for sure. You were the first developer to take on my large plugin commission for the late AVM MC. I remember how you felt sorry for me getting scammed out of $100 looking for a developer for my project, so you graciously accepted to do my commission and deduct the amount I was scammed from the total. A year later, I had grown tired of waiting for this commission to be finished. I started treating you like shit. Looking back, this was terrible! You did not deserve this at all. You are only human after all. For that, I'm deeply sorry.

And finally, Wvisoecj, you and I have no reason to fight, yet I bring out the worst in us for childish reasons. Looking back, I believe it is fueled by jealously over your development skills. I didn't have the proper training until much later in life than you did. I apologize for all the trouble I have caused you this past week and for being a selfish brat. If you will forgive me, I would love to start over with our friendship and work to build each other up instead of tearing each other down!

 

[Tabbin]

I wasnt involved in the situation, but very mature of you to apologize so publicly.

 

[Malek668]

Nice that you apologised to theese people

 

[InsertNameHere]

jesus this is deep for a fucking Minecraft forum XD

 

[n0tzach]

Too deep


Thanks for apologizing!

 

[MTG]

Alright, Cool dude.
You did the right thing.

 

[Justis]

That was very mature of you, Croc. Not many people have the strength to admit mistakes and apologize, especially to the people you have, to the people whom you've felt ill towards; myself included; and to the public were you can be judged for them no less.
I'd be honored to call a friend anyone who can be so considerate and selfless. This thread is not something I would have expected from the Croc I've come to know, and it's a happy surprise. I've seen improvement in your attitude towards the members of our community, and I hope that it continues, and you are able to look back and feel proud of yourself for those same improvements.
You deserve that. You're a beautiful and unique human being just like the rest of us; and you put effort into living your life to the fullest as you see it.
That's admirable.
Thank you for this thread, Croc.

 

[lAkjtzAZ0]

That behavior is EXACTLY the reason why I rated it funny in the first place. You are immature about everything and can't take criticism/people not agreeing or liking you. I rated it funny because I don't believe for one second this was a sincere apology, and that's MY OPINION. Many people on mcm have not seen how you act in the discord servers we are in, but from my experience this isn't a legitimate apology and you'll be causing more drama shortly. If it is a legitimate apology that's fantastic, but from my experience with you I don't believe it is. I am in no way trying to be rude or drag you down, this is just my personal opinion on this situation.