Hey MCM, there is a TLDR at the bottom!
So first thing's first, I should clarify what I am looking for in regards to help. I urgently need to make some small cash; my normal job is not paying enough for my other activities (I will go in depth further later in this writing), and I do not know of any ways I can make a quick buck with my skill-set-- as well as in quota with my life's circumstances.
I have had chronic anxiety and panic disorder for a long period of my life and got prescribed 3mg of Alprazolam (Xanax) per day. It has done wonders. However, around a year ago my psychiatrist started tapering me off-- when he learned of my family's alcohol abuse and was informed about a DUI that I was involved in-- and long story short, just this month I am no longer on Alprazolam for my anxiety issues.
I have taken anxiety medications my whole life and Alprazolam & Klonopin are the only medications that have truly made my life livable. The past weeks have been rough. Rather than following through with what my psychiatrist deems fit (which I cannot stress enough to him that I need to get back on Alprazolam, my anxiety is heightened to a new level), I have been purchasing Alprazolam from not-so-official people. With that comes a whole new world of things to deal with-- as well as anxiety. It's been stressful to say the least.
I can't afford this unofficial Alprazolam use. It's a new world for me. It's expensive, but I need it. I did not ever have the thought I would have to do this, but this is how life is nowadays (at least for me).
I was brutally honest in this post-- and I know that may come across in many different ways, but I am begging you to please give me your advice or any other feedback you have. I would really appreciate it.
TL;DR: Lost access to my Benzos for my Anxiety, soon will not be able to afford my unofficial Benzos. Psychiatrist does not understand. I am trying to make ends meet while being able to afford Benzos to self-medicate.
So first thing's first, I should clarify what I am looking for in regards to help. I urgently need to make some small cash; my normal job is not paying enough for my other activities (I will go in depth further later in this writing), and I do not know of any ways I can make a quick buck with my skill-set-- as well as in quota with my life's circumstances.
I have had chronic anxiety and panic disorder for a long period of my life and got prescribed 3mg of Alprazolam (Xanax) per day. It has done wonders. However, around a year ago my psychiatrist started tapering me off-- when he learned of my family's alcohol abuse and was informed about a DUI that I was involved in-- and long story short, just this month I am no longer on Alprazolam for my anxiety issues.
I have taken anxiety medications my whole life and Alprazolam & Klonopin are the only medications that have truly made my life livable. The past weeks have been rough. Rather than following through with what my psychiatrist deems fit (which I cannot stress enough to him that I need to get back on Alprazolam, my anxiety is heightened to a new level), I have been purchasing Alprazolam from not-so-official people. With that comes a whole new world of things to deal with-- as well as anxiety. It's been stressful to say the least.
I can't afford this unofficial Alprazolam use. It's a new world for me. It's expensive, but I need it. I did not ever have the thought I would have to do this, but this is how life is nowadays (at least for me).
I was brutally honest in this post-- and I know that may come across in many different ways, but I am begging you to please give me your advice or any other feedback you have. I would really appreciate it.
TL;DR: Lost access to my Benzos for my Anxiety, soon will not be able to afford my unofficial Benzos. Psychiatrist does not understand. I am trying to make ends meet while being able to afford Benzos to self-medicate.
