Hey, guys Dimer here. This is my first thread that is like this. It is the day of her funeral and I still can't cope with it. I am not suicidal or depressed but, it gave me a new approach to life. I am very sad, I am currently crying while making this. Sitting in my room at 9 soaked in tears. I didn't know her that well, although I went to go see her often. She probably slightly knew me, she was 104. When I was there sitting in the room with the casket, with all my family and friends. We saw pictures on a screen, this had pictures of me when I was younger with her. It also had pictures of her having a good time. I realized that one day, we all go. (Not that I didn't know this before) I didn't have to speak at the funeral, I just sat and watched, yet it felt like something was missing. My grandpa was sitting in the front of the room, and I could just imagine, that could be my father. And one day, it will hopefully be. Later that day we went to go put her to rest in her grave. I saw how many people were at her funeral. Not many, but still a decent amount. I'd seen so many family members and some people I didn't know. At this very moment, I wanted my funeral when I died to be like this, but bigger. I want to be someone and do something with my life. I don't want to be remembered as everyone else. But be myself and try the hardest at whatever I do. Because when it comes down to it, you either are someone or not anyone. She will be missed. Now I whenever I went to go meet her it won't be at a nursing home. But where she lies with the rest of our family. And that family counts, every step of the way.I am not asking anything from any of you guys, just saying that do something with your life. - Dimer
Sorry Kiri
Sorry Kiri
I will be also died soon. 
