Suicidal Feelings & School

[imagamer]

Hey,

So basically, I'm a fourteen year old in eight grade. I've had problems with depression and active suicidal ideation. None of my friends or teachers know about it though. Yesterday night I cut my forearms up and it's really obvious. Usually I wouldn't be too worried as I don't talk to anyone over the summer, but now that school's back and some people have started to catch on, I'm paranoid because I show my arms more than I think.. we have gym uniforms and chemistry labs, both of which can show my arms.. I have had confrontations with students about it but gotten away with it. I don't think I can get away with it again. I got out of gym yesterday, but I can't get away with it twice in a row and now I'm afraid that I might be put on the spot and people might see my arms. As for chemistry.. well it's my first class period so I need some way to hide my arms fast.

Is there any way I can hide my cuts other than this plaster thing I've seen people talking about?

 

[Nykorrin]

You should consult your gym teacher, chemistry teacher and a counselor regarding your recent thoughts and how you currently feel about showing your arms. This plaster thing that you've seen people talk about may or may not be the best idea, they act as a splint for broken bones and may get in the way of class when unnecessary. I believe facing this problem head-on is the best solution, I have a friend who has cuts on her wrists and is doing well and no one questions it. Of course, you are free to face this problem however you want but this is just my suggestion, good luck.

 

[imagamer]

You should consult your gym teacher, chemistry teacher and a counselor regarding your recent thoughts and how you currently feel about showing your arms. This plaster thing that you've seen people talk about may or may not be the best idea, they act as a splint for broken bones and may get in the way of class when unnecessary. I believe facing this problem head-on is the best solution, I have a friend who has cuts on her wrists and is doing well and no one questions it. Of course, you are free to face this problem however you want but this is just my suggestion, good luck.

Whenever im like in the moment and someone asks me if something is wrong I can never actually tell them or get myself to like somehow do something productive.. I don't know.. friends in my school (im grateful for) told adults before but i've done it again now

 

[Fanta]

Hey,

So basically, I'm a fourteen year old in eight grade. I've had problems with depression and active suicidal ideation. None of my friends or teachers know about it though. Yesterday night I cut my forearms up and it's really obvious. Usually I wouldn't be too worried as I don't talk to anyone over the summer, but now that school's back and some people have started to catch on, I'm paranoid because I show my arms more than I think.. we have gym uniforms and chemistry labs, both of which can show my arms.. I have had confrontations with students about it but gotten away with it. I don't think I can get away with it again. I got out of gym yesterday, but I can't get away with it twice in a row and now I'm afraid that I might be put on the spot and people might see my arms. As for chemistry.. well it's my first class period so I need some way to hide my arms fast.

Is there any way I can hide my cuts other than this plaster thing I've seen people talking about?

First off this is a Minecraft Market but we're still here to help. Firstly, I would tell a loved one or someone very close to you about this problem. All though it may be hard to do I would definitely consult someone. Lastly, I know that this is a problem of yours but cutting yourself isn't always the way to solve depression. You should consult your doctor or someone of the sort and ask about this and tell them your problems. I've had troubles but not this serious and my advice to you is that you should contact someone you can trust.

 

[imagamer]

First off this is a Minecraft Market but we're still here to help. Firstly, I would tell a loved one or someone very close to you about this problem. All though it may be hard to do I would definitely consult someone. Lastly, I know that this is a problem of yours but cutting yourself isn't always the way to solve depression. You should consult your doctor or someone of the sort and ask about this and tell them your problems. I've had troubles but not this serious and my advice to you is that you should contact someone you can trust.

My mom and dad know, and I do have a psychologist, but today when asked If I did anything of the sort i lied to them and now I'm not sure what to do

 

[Fanta]

My mom and dad know, and I do have a psychologist, but today when asked If I did anything of the sort i lied to them and now I'm not sure what to do

If it were me I would tell them, families usually understand this type of stuff and can help you. You don't have to hide it just because you think that they will get upset or whatever your reasoning for that is.

 

[imagamer]

If it were me I would tell them, families usually understand this type of stuff and can help you. You don't have to hide it just because you think that they will get upset or whatever your reasoning for that is.

I dont know I just cant get myself to do it. Me and my psychologist created a list of helpful coping skills like talking to my friends or being with my cat or putting ice on my arms and hands, but in the moment i dont really think about helping myself its really just compulsive.. I want to tell my mom but i dont at the same time and its like an impossible internal debate

 

[Fanta]

I dont know I just cant get myself to do it. Me and my psychologist created a list of helpful coping skills like talking to my friends or being with my cat or putting ice on my arms and hands, but in the moment i dont really think about helping myself its really just compulsive.. I want to tell my mom but i dont at the same time and its like an impossible internal debate

Do what you want, I was just saying what I would do in that situation. It's National Suicide Prevention month this month and I'm trying my best here. I hope that you get yourself to telling someone and that you resolve this issue.

 

[imagamer]

Do what you want, I was just saying what I would do in that situation. It's National Suicide Prevention month this month and I'm trying my best here. I hope that you get yourself to telling someone and that you resolve this issue.

thank you mate i'll remember what you said and i'll try to take it to heart best I can.

 

[Fanta]

thank you mate i'll remember what you said and i'll try to take it to heart best I can.

Anytime If you ever need help call 1-800-273-8255 or if you want help with someone like me (I don't know why you would) you can add me on Discord Squids#0582 or just PM me on this site! I hope that I helped a little bit or helped you make a decision of telling your parents or not.

 

[mai]

Replies like these on a thread like this restores my faith in humanity. Good to know there are still people on this website who arent too buse scamming etc to be bothered with real world problems as this young fellow is discussing. I myself to be honest have had suicidal thoughts but I cant be much for help advice wise because I somehow managed to pull myself off that mindset with 1. Will power and 2. Getting involved. Getting involved is the only tip I can really give you. When I was contemplsting suicide I decided as my last hope of happiness I would try out for my highschool football team and to my surprise, I made it. And I couldnt thank my coaches/teammates enough, they keep me happy and motivated every single day and they just keep my spirits up so I dont get in a deep hole again in my life. Id reccomend getting involved in a sport you like etc just so that you feel appreciated and welcomed etc. If it were me I'd honestly wear those scars with pride, either make up a fake story telling people a funny story how u ended up wrestling with a bear but managed to make it out alive or twll the the truth and most people (atleast where I live) will be more than happy to help you out.

 

[imagamer]

Replies like these on a thread like this restores my faith in humanity. Good to know there are still people on this website who arent too buse scamming etc to be bothered with real world problems as this young fellow is discussing. I myself to be honest have had suicidal thoughts but I cant be much for help advice wise because I somehow managed to pull myself off that mindset with 1. Will power and 2. Getting involved. Getting involved is the only tip I can really give you. When I was contemplsting suicide I decided as my last hope of happiness I would try out for my highschool football team and to my surprise, I made it. And I couldnt thank my coaches/teammates enough, they keep me happy and motivated every single day and they just keep my spirits up so I dont get in a deep hole again in my life. Id reccomend getting involved in a sport you like etc just so that you feel appreciated and welcomed etc. If it were me I'd honestly wear those scars with pride, either make up a fake story telling people a funny story how u ended up wrestling with a bear but managed to make it out alive or twll the the truth and most people (atleast where I live) will be more than happy to help you out.

Thank you so much mate.. honestly your response the more i think about it the more suitable i think it is for someone like me.. all my friends think of me as optimistic so I feel like doing that would get across the message to my friends with a better underlying meaning then just talking serious to them (I usually never talk serious to my friends)[DOUBLEPOST=1538536908][/DOUBLEPOST]

Visit the jungle,

Breath in, breath out. Look how amazing the jungle is, the creatures, bananas, etc.

My fellow monkey brothers are here for you!

I'm A Boogie, I'm there when you least expect it!
Again, This is what the JUNGLE do

Sounds like a plan

 

[Remmie]

Did you try talking to your school counselor?

 

[imagamer]

Did you try talking to your school counselor?

I have and she is very good, but not very time effective. I have had two times scheduled for her and she has missed both. I feel like the most effective person for me to talk to is my psychologist but if I see my counselor more often that could change[DOUBLEPOST=1538537457][/DOUBLEPOST]

I have and she is very good, but not very time effective. I have had two times scheduled for her and she has missed both. I feel like the most effective person for me to talk to is my psychologist but if I see my counselor more often that could change

I see my psychologist only once a week*

 

[Remmie]

I have and she is very good, but not very time effective. I have had two times scheduled for her and she has missed both. I feel like the most effective person for me to talk to is my psychologist but if I see my counselor more often that could change[DOUBLEPOST=1538537457]

Try changing from 2 into every single day. If not I'll gladly talk to you if you want.

 

[imagamer]

I'm not going to sugarcoat anything so if you want that please keep scrolling. (I'm probably also going to wander off to something different than cutting but bear with me).

Cutting yourself is retarded you're doing nothing but making it worse, trust me, I know the feeling of not feeling good enough, feeling like your friends are only with you because of pity and feeling like everyone's looking at you.
I've never cut myself, I have a friend who did it and I think it's weird, but who am I. How I see things now, if you do damage to yourself, your stuff (e.x breaking your keyboard when raging) your just making a bigger mess. See like you did now, you've made yourself worry about your arms because you hurt yourself. You're going thru it and I know you (probably) feel worthless. I've asked myself thousands of times why I don't just end it all, like no one would care (I could never kill myself, I hate to see my mom in grief). Think of people you love, your parents, siblings, nieces/nephews, aunts, whatever. How would they feel if you did this to yourself? They'd be shocked and feel like they failed you, you don't want to put that upon them, you're a decent human being and want to be happy.

Get in the right mindset cutting, bullying, etc. isn't going to help anyone, it'll just make you look like more of a fool. I am 100% sure that you're a beautiful human from the inside and outside. Think of this: Why am I anxious? Let me tell you, no stranger gives a fuck about how you look, how you act. I deal with self esteem issues but reminding myself that strangers don't care helps me alot. You have been given the gift of LIFE. I'm going to assume you're in highschool, and if you are let me tell you this: I am in highschool and shit sucks. ANYTHING YOU DO IN HIGH SCHOOL WILL NOT AFFECT YOU LATER ON. High school is the best and worst socially. You get to meet alot of people which is a blessing and a curse. Try to weed out people you like and make a bond with them.

You are great, being yourself is scary. You're vulnerable, but trust me, you won't want to deceive people with a persona you put on. I am sure, and certain, that you are a kind human and nutured well. You have manners and standards, stand up for those. If people annoy you or step out of line tell them and don't be scared. I have recently done these 2 things:
Accept stuff, shit's gonna happen eitherway. If something does not "affect" you (heavily, emotionally or physically) just accept it and try to deal with it the best you can, try to think positive.
Be the kind one, in high school alot of people get picked on and judged (I am also quick to judge). Try to give people compliments (especially girls (if u know what im sayin)) and just make the best of it.

I don't have time to write more right now, if you have questions or struggle with anything feel free to pm me or add me on discord, I'm always down to talk.
hellfire#3223

Stick in there dude, you're great.

Thank you mate.. You were pretty to the point which well some people are, it's just that it's compulsive no matter how retarded I know it is.. it's just so hard NOT to..[DOUBLEPOST=1538690219][/DOUBLEPOST]

Yo, so i was/am in the same boat as you mate, same age, same problem, i am not as deeply in the crap as you are, I don't cut myself, but i feel like if at any moment, somebody handed me a gun and onyl a gun i would shoot myself

Here is what i do to deal with it
I laugh and find funny videos (I suggest fitz)

I do not get into drama at all

I have fun with friends and make sure i am somewhat known and not unpopular

I love Fitz, and I hate school drama.. I just cant watch my Fitz because I broke my headphones :/