Suicidal Feelings & School

[imagamer]

Hey,

So basically, I'm a fourteen year old in eight grade. I've had problems with depression and active suicidal ideation. None of my friends or teachers know about it though. Yesterday night I cut my forearms up and it's really obvious. Usually I wouldn't be too worried as I don't talk to anyone over the summer, but now that school's back and some people have started to catch on, I'm paranoid because I show my arms more than I think.. we have gym uniforms and chemistry labs, both of which can show my arms.. I have had confrontations with students about it but gotten away with it. I don't think I can get away with it again. I got out of gym yesterday, but I can't get away with it twice in a row and now I'm afraid that I might be put on the spot and people might see my arms. As for chemistry.. well it's my first class period so I need some way to hide my arms fast.

Is there any way I can hide my cuts other than this plaster thing I've seen people talking about?

 

[Dudd]

Definitely talk to people, it helps if you can trust them. (It'll help more if they personally have experience with it) Consider instead of cutting, each time you get the feeling, just take the time to think. Personally I've found listening to music & relaxing is a great way to avoid the thoughts. As far as everything, just try to keep yourself in a calm, collected, relaxed mindset, it really helps (speaking from personal experience)

I recommend being yourself & being as you as you can be, it'll help instead of hiding things. As for hiding your arms -- long sleeves is the best (and a safe) way to do it if possible. Just be sure you talk your problems out with trustworthy friends / adults. If you ever need to talk feel free to message me. Best of luck.

 

[imagamer]

Definitely talk to people, it helps if you can trust them. (It'll help more if they personally have experience with it) Consider instead of cutting, each time you get the feeling, just take the time to think. Personally I've found listening to music & relaxing is a great way to avoid the thoughts. As far as everything, just try to keep yourself in a calm, collected, relaxed mindset, it really helps (speaking from personal experience)

I recommend being yourself & being as you as you can be, it'll help instead of hiding things. As for hiding your arms -- long sleeves is the best (and a safe) way to do it if possible. Just be sure you talk your problems out with trustworthy friends / adults. If you ever need to talk feel free to message me. Best of luck.

Every time I feel that way it feels like I just don't want to get better which may sound crazy but I dunno.. Music and sleep are my number one options as well as holding ice in my hands. Other than that, It's rare that I actually do what im supposed to do in that situation though ;/

 

[Dudd]

Every time I feel that way it feels like I just don't want to get better which may sound crazy but I dunno.. Music and sleep are my number one options as well as holding ice in my hands. Other than that, It's rare that I actually do what im supposed to do in that situation though ;/

I get it. It's hard to stop after you start, but once you start avoiding you will feel so much better. I found talking to people is the easiest way to avoid it (even though I tend to avoid talking to people). When you feel the urge to cut, when you have those thoughts, when you try to do something stupid. MESSAGE SOMEONE. As I said, I'm open to talking with you if you ever need it, I'm sure others are as well, and your friends will be great (so long as you can trust them). There are also forums if you look well enough where you can share your experiences, legit ones are harder to find, but they work.

Consider calling a hotline if it gets bad, people are trained to help you handle those situations. It's all about how you choose to handle it.

 

[imagamer]

I get it. It's hard to stop after you start, but once you start avoiding you will feel so much better. I found talking to people is the easiest way to avoid it (even though I tend to avoid talking to people). When you feel the urge to cut, when you have those thoughts, when you try to do something stupid. MESSAGE SOMEONE. As I said, I'm open to talking with you if you ever need it, I'm sure others are as well, and your friends will be great (so long as you can trust them). There are also forums if you look well enough where you can share your experiences, legit ones are harder to find, but they work.

Consider calling a hotline if it gets bad, people are trained to help you handle those situations. It's all about how you choose to handle it.

I have people I can talk to about it but sometimes they don't take it well, and I'm just overall horrified about the thought of calling a suicide hotline

 

[Dudd]

I have people I can talk to about it but sometimes they don't take it well, and I'm just overall horrified about the thought of calling a suicide hotline

Understandable, but don't be. Honestly, it helps, it really does. If the thoughts of calling a hotline are legitimately horrifying, most have text options, or even options to talk in live chats/anonymous chats with helpline associates. It's horrifying, but doing it can help you more than you think.

 

[imagamer]

Understandable, but don't be. Honestly, it helps, it really does. If the thoughts of calling a hotline are legitimately horrifying, most have text options, or even options to talk in live chats/anonymous chats with helpline associates. It's horrifying, but doing it can help you more than you think.

I feel like talking to random people helps because I feel guilty when I talk to people I know about it

 

[Dudd]

I feel like talking to random people helps because I feel guilty when I talk to people I know about it

I definitely understand that. Randoms are wonderful

 

[imagamer]

I definitely understand that. Randoms are wonderful

Who would of thought.. all jokes aside thank you so much for talking to me about it.. probably weird this on a minecraft market.. yea... thank you so much mate

 

[Dudd]

Who would of thought.. all jokes aside thank you so much for talking to me about it.. probably weird this on a minecraft market.. yea... thank you so much mate

It's no worries, I'm happy to help even in the slightest. I try to extend a helping hand when I can. Again, if you need to talk, or just need someone to listen, message me. I'm happy to listen and talk with you.

 

[imagamer]

Hey dude, I’m sorry to hear what your going through this had happened to me last year when I began to cut myself as well. I personally was self concious and just was generally down and I had constantly questioned my existence and the true reason for me being on this planet. What I personally recommend is not exactly a counsellor as much as that would help your parents may find out and I doubt u want that personally I never did. There are online therapy websites some free other paid as well as the child help line if you live in America. Another thing I’d recommend is finding a passion. Though it’s distracting u from what you should be facing it is a great relief and can help you. If you need any help or anything I’m almost always on discord or here QuitDM#5150 I found it helpful personally talking to people who had dealt with the same thing. The final thing is don’t countine though that seems generic you can get addicted not sure if your aware. Also, take it from someone with scars you don’t want to have them as a reminder it never makes it better.

I quit some of the things I used to do a lot because I wasn't interested anymore... my psychologist tells me in my situation that is a red flag.. I do love listening to music and when I'm in a specific mood I like to do programming on my computer because it requires a lot (at least for me) of focus. I can't multitask when I am. My parents tell me not to continue as well as my psychologist but I always feel like doing it..

 

[anna.]

First of all, don't cut yourself. You have stated before that it is has developed into a habit. I have been in that same place before, it is very hard to break a habit once you do it. Harming yourself has no positive affect on anyone and only worsens the situation. There is this mobile app called Calm Harm or something along those lines and it has helped me before. You're able to choose what strategy you want to use to avoid harming yourself, and exercises with those.
Secondly, talk to people you can trust. Lying to those who show genuine concern for you will not benefit you. Be honest with people who you are able to trust and rely on. Your school counselor could be a good person to talk to when you are feeling like that and you can discuss ways to possibly prevent another episode of self harm.
Thirdly, I am here for you. I might be a stranger on the internet but if you ever need to contact me on Discord, my tag is Hope#0006, or you can privately message me on here; either one works.
Anyways, I hope you are aware that self harm isn't a path you want to go down or continue to go down.

 

[imagamer]

First of all, don't cut yourself. You have stated before that it is has developed into a habit. I have been in that same place before, it is very hard to break a habit once you do it. Harming yourself has no positive affect on anyone and only worsens the situation. There is this mobile app called Calm Harm or something along those lines and it has helped me before. You're able to choose what strategy you want to use to avoid harming yourself, and exercises with those.
Secondly, talk to people you can trust. Lying to those who show genuine concern for you will not benefit you. Be honest with people who you are able to trust and rely on. Your school counselor could be a good person to talk to when you are feeling like that and you can discuss ways to possibly prevent another episode of self harm.
Thirdly, I am here for you. I might be a stranger on the internet but if you ever need to contact me on Discord, my tag is Hope#0006, or you can privately message me on here; either one works.
Anyways, I hope you are aware that self harm isn't a path you want to go down or continue to go down.

I know what you are getting at I really do, it's just so compulsive i don't know if I still would stop